It's been one year and I can hardly believe it.  I've had some ups and downs the past few days just being in this time of year now and anticipating this date.  Today will be a day of reflection, prayer and memories.  I can't stop thinking about what I was doing and going through at this or that time last year.

Last night, I went through Lydia's things and mementos.  I read ALL of the cards that I was given during my pregnancy and after I had Lydia.  So, needless to say, your words, prayers and thoughts are still ministering to me.  And I know they'll continue to help me every year actually.  I felt the need to sleep with her blanket and a stuffed bear with wings that says "My Little Angel."  The white lights of her Christmas tree were in view from my bed and left on all night, which will probably continue this entire month.

We're remembering and celebrating Lydia today.  Making a birthday cake, releasing some balloons, watching a video of that day, lighting candles and simply spending time with her and the Lord.  When I told Alex yesterday that we were going to make a cake for her, he said excitedly, "Is she coming (to her party)?"  Ahh...brings tears to my eyes.

Lindsay and Renay wrote to Lydia and me on their blogs.  Thank you...I love you!

I'll probably be posting a few times today including linking to my friend's blog where I wrote a letter to Lydia.

Will you all do something for me?  Will you think of Lydia and our family today?  Will you look up to the sky and remember her?  Will you light a candle for her?  I love this song and although it's about so much more than lighting a candle, mainly living an inspiring and amazing life through Christ, I think of her when I hear it.